and I'm getting excited!
I didn't do a whole lot last week. I was feeling pretty fatigued after the relay simulation thing. I did two really easy days and then I did 6 yesterday. I felt pretty fresh going in, but it didn't take long before everything got heavy. Time was decent. I'm still a long way from this being as easy as the 1/1's were. Most of the time, I'm still optimistic that eventually I'll get there. Looking back over the last month or so, I think some of what I'm fighting right now is the shortening of the walk intervals. I was having a few good days with the 90 second walk breaks. I might be ratcheting them back a little too fast.
The only truly consistent thing over these last few years is any improvement takes forever and a day. Sadly, I'm not real patient. So there is a bit of a clash in my daily reality.
I'm not planning any big mileage this week. Just want to stay loose and try to go into this thing as fresh as I can. No question about it, I am the weakest link on this team. It's not a coincidence I was given the two shortest runs. And frankly I'm realistic about it all. The team captain did the right thing and I'm glad he did.
Now, giving me the last run is a truly awesome gesture... I do know that's an honor and I'm really looking forward to it and I know it's got the big time potential for being a really emotional run for me... but, there is also a little fear about how fast I can do it after enduring everything that proceeds it. The relay veterans all talk about dead legs and sleep deprivation. Man, doesn't that sound like fun!
You know, I think the nervousness about these things is to some degree a part of the attraction. Getting out there and taking on your fear and self doubt is truly a big part of the reward.
Self-conquest is the greatest of victories.-- Plato
Yes, it is!
